Mayday

The nesting instinct has taken over. Just put on the third coat of paint in the nursery. Getting ready to pull up all of the carpet upstairs so that new carpet can be laid. Then planning on moving the office from the upstairs down into the fourth bedroom. Not sure what will happen with the couch down there. Anyone want one? It has a hide-a-bed.

I have so many things all happening at once right now. Work is busy, life is busy, but things remain good. Sure there are panic points. How are we going to survive for 3 months on 1 income? How are we going to pay for Sonia's college? Day care Day care Day care.... Have to pick a Physician for little baby. How do you change a diaper? Am I going to be a good parent...

Despite my anxiety closet, I feel good today. Life is moving quick but I feel like most of my cylinders are firing.

Twenty, 19, eighteen , 17, 16, fifteen, 14, thirteen, 12, 11, 10, nine, eight, seven, six, 5, four, 3, 2, one zero.

We have lift off. Your life as you know it is about to become a tiny point dangling somewhere in your past. Soon you will be orbiting around your daughter at 1,2000 m.p.h. Your hair will begin to grey and continue to fall out. None of this will matter, however, because the horizon that you are racing towards is not the one you ran at in your youth. This is a new vista, a new life, a shared life... This is a family...